Changes

The last couple of weeks have been a bit crazy for us, I say "us" because the changes going on affect everyone. The biggest "thing" that's happened is that Andrew lost his job. This came as a huge surprise to the both of us as well as all of his staff and the industry reps that he deals with. The lay off really came out of left field and has left us both standing around with our mouths open trying to figure out what to do next. I will give Andrew credit though, he has dealt with this amazingly well. The first night that we were dealing with all this I felt like he was consoling me more than the other way around (don't worry...I quickly got my self together!) He has now been unemployed for a little over a week and I think we are both ready for him to go back to work! Unfortunately the problem that we now face is where to find said work. There are opportunities in both Toronto and Ottawa, however the better of the choices probably lies in Toronto. I find myself walking a fine line between being incredibly supportive of my partner who is out of work and dealing with a pretty big bruise to his ego and desperately wanting us to be a real family that lives in the same city more than a few days a month. I find myself more often than not biting my tongue and not saying exactly what I'm feeling but sugar coating it more than I normally would. For those of you who know me, know that I rarely sugar coat...I'm more of a say it like it is type of girl. What I want to say is "if you take any other job in Toronto we are done, I cannot handle the long distance family thing any long" and yet what comes out is "I love you and of course I will support whatever decision you make" The latter of the two I think is the more mature side of me talking...the first option is the selfish part of me.

The last week we have had a taste of being in the same city (something neither of us have known since we first started dating 3 1/2 years ago) and I have to say, it's been nice. It's been normal, easy, I hesitate to say boring. However, it isn't the "I need some excitement" type of boring, but more just the normal couple type of boring. Family dinners, and renting videos on the weekend. Having another adult around for grocery shopping, shoe shopping and bath time. It's been one of those weeks that's made me remember the things that I've been missing so much the past little while.

And so...while I have grown to embrace my alone time, after the boys go to bed or when they are at their dad's...I really think I'm ready to have less alone time and more "us" time.